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Need Disease

by Kyle John Kenowski

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aaron Kyles singing voice sounds like David Longstreth and his guitar playing is reminiscent of Ry Cooder. That pair seems odd, yet the music is whimsical, cleverly arranged, and exceptional. The fantasy feel throughout keeps you engaged and the mix is brilliant. It’s just a well done album and has that ‘weird air’ I am always on the hunt for. Can’t wait for more!
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1.
Peter 03:19
Ah.
2.
Trustwormy 03:08
You're a liar. No wonder.
3.
Oh. I see now. But I never would've guessed that straight lines were best, I can finally rest now that curves were bested, Tangents arrested, North, South, East, West. And I know what I love but I don't know what it's for. I know what I love but I don't know what it's for. Oh I see now, but those red runs flee when that pin pricked me, I can finally bleed now that veins are free And that straight line was clean but my heart still screams out, I know what I love but I don't know what it's for. I know what I love but I don't know what it's for.
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5.
I felt my friends, their presence spun in time; I led, as songs from childhood rang. The acre plumage nodded as the fire bloomed; Approved as we both sang. Said ah... I've been here before. I've been here before. I've been here before. I've been here before. So I will taste you grab my leg and tear my sleeve, and I will hear you sweat and see the words you breathe, and I will feel you turn to night and radiate that light. That light. The leaves are spinning, what little sunlight left is brimming. Not worth restating, no gods these days to wait on bated breath, so I'll will you out from under, in from over, I won't weep once more. I have always known, Truth takes time to grow but I will try. I'll try.
6.
Once in a while you will glue veins together and you'll stitch with your eyes closed, puncture the leather. Yes I know you're always here then you're gone, never now very long, "How's your needle?" "It is fine." "How's your needle?" "It is mine." Peter, I wonder why you blink so slowly? You know that you don't have to be lonely. I know that you're in pain but please show me how. Once in a while there are days that will brim, and your heart it will hum, absent all little drugs but how's your vial? What's it say? Pill Bottle how's your day? And Peter, I haven't seen that smile in ages, I think that I can finally trust you, tell me where you have been. Once in a while, your friends will lie and lie, (You’ll Avalanche inside), Avalanche you will be mine, shoot sugar straight into the spine, (You always fall in straighter lines), wooden dancer you’ll be mine, collapse into your mind, I watched you struggle just to try, stick a needle right into your eye, wooden dancer straighten out your spine, strip the tree bark right off the pines, and please be kind, dancer please be kind, stick a needle straight into your eye, wooden dancer straighten out your spine, and I know that they’re all liars, but you’ll be mine. You’ll be mine.
7.
Dream sugar child, don't stay awake for things you shouldn't see. I was wrong, I was wrong, it was me. Pair wisely Kyle, or you'll wait for things I keep in hide, you are raw and it hurts, but you're mine. Breathe louder child, you haven't moved since I put out the lights. If I go will you live through the night?
8.
Avalanche 08:13
Don't give up, I'm alright, Avalanche give up the fight. Pinch my nose, cup my mouth, lust leaves little room for doubt. Hurt me using things I like, smile while you're filled with spite. Don't give up, I'm alright. Avalanche, give up. Leave me sifting through the dirt, this time I might find my worth. Peel my skin, ring my neck, you make pain so effortless. Hold my heart, heat and blood, you're not fooling anyone. Lean in hard, brace your frame, sadists love to share the blame. And Peter come back, you're not the same, saccharine evergreens will shed their needles, thread those icy vines right through your veins. You're just a good boy nobody blames, red will run through like an avalanche, and Liar my last phrase will be your name. And Kyle answer, I know you're there. Child pry those eyelids open, this is not fair. Prison mind convince me not to care, you promised me that you'd be there. And I know this only gets worse from here on out. Sugar helps, the needle hurts, I know myself, the lie was worth it. (Parse your words well tonight, this may well be our last fight.) I'm not a gambler, I hate this game, just be honest, I'll be honest with you, promise to keep promises I made. You have the answer, (I know) it's in your heart. No just wait, I'm on my way, and you'll be mine if you will stay. You have the answer, it's in your heart, saccharine evergreens will shed their needles, thread that leather till it pulls apart. Dear cryptic lines, hear my deep down sigh. Sleep take over, I don't mind. Sleep forever, liar mine. (Purposelessly leave out words I need while we both shout.) I'm not a martyr, I just want out, Hell is here inside for all of us, we'll dance round fires till they Peter out. Cause you're a loser, I know, me too, but I'll be there through the avalanche. I'll be here till the breath returns to you. Give up. Not alright. Avalanche, give up.
9.
Needle Deeds 04:19
I pushed through the skin for the bleed, and I only need a bit for the yes indeed, and it sways through my body like a whisper, gives back a little less than I need. I know that sigh-low. I know you tried though. I saw through the listless pleas, and it only took my heart to the bare bark trees that sway with the words I only whisper, I should stop looking for things but I can't help but want to receive. You were a liar then, because your friend committed suicide. Why is everyone on heroin? Oh no. I know. You were a liar then you are a liar. And I know.

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This album took two years to create, and it was a very tumultuous time in my life. I finished it in 2018 but took an additional two years to make the animated music video for Trustwormy: www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQL5xsQ1WAY&ab_channel=AdultSwim

So please watch that as well, I consider it integral to the album itself.

I am extremely proud of this work, even with it's flaws, and I hope you enjoy it. If you do, consider supporting me at Patreon.com/kylejohnkenowski where you can find extra exclusive content.

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released November 17, 2020

All songs written, performed, recorded, and produced by Kyle John Kenowski.

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Basically just a Classical Psychedelic Folk Pop musician and animator, check me out at the links below, and if you have the means and want exclusive content and merch please consider supporting me on patreon!

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